A Year of My Amazing Life

A year ago tomorrow, I went into labor at 6:00 am. My daughter, Madison, will be one on Sunday! I am excited for her birthday to come, and also a little stressed out about the party planning.  This might sound weird, but I am a little depressed that I am not having another baby right now!  I am single, and not even dating anyone so it would make it pretty difficult anyways!  The past year has flown by so quickly!  I love seeing new things Madison does everyday, and miss having a little baby :(  I hope eventually one day to have more kids, but know it isn't in the cards for me now!  I am a single mommy doing it all on my own.  I have to say, I would not change a thing!  I am a much more stronger, independent, responsible person now that I have Madison.  I left her dad when she was about a month old, and should have done it a lot sooner.  He calls me about once every four months or so to pretend that he wants to see her and asks why I won't let him.  It is a very long story, so maybe on another blog I will share more.  Anyways, it is really difficult to be the mom and the dad.  I wish she had a dad that was responsible enough to be in her life.  For now, I am doing it on my own.  We have so much fun, and are getting along just fine without him!  I have to say that I am truly blessed to have such a wonderful daughter.  She is just so funny, and smart, and cute, and so much more.  She amazes me on a daily basis and is the most wonderful thing to wake up to everyday.  I think I would be so depressed if I had to share her with anyone anyways!  Hope everyone has a good weekend!